Junior here is another poem just for you that mummy decided to write to you,

Every word ever so true, its so hard living here without you

I’m still here, living the pain,

Everyday a struggle

All fear, upset and distress but never any gain.

I’ve moved away, to a place where I don’t want to be,

Because it’s your daddy everyday I cannot see,

He’s ok, doing good and doing well at college just like I knew he would.

I wonder how you are, living up there,

Surrounded and embraced by people that care,

Jack’s uncle and your great grandad will help to care for you,

Not to forget great nana Millie she will too.

I bet there is lots of colours, teddy bears and more,

Getting by, you’re the one I do it for,

Did I forget daddy, how silly of me, I live for him also as you can probably see.

I wish I could go back in time and change what I have done,

What I would give to have you here,

To tell you I love you and soothe you when you cry,

I hope you don’t hate me for what I did

And if I had the chance I’d end my life so you could live.

Ten little fingers and ten little toes,

All the joys I’ll never know,

All the memories that can never be,

When the lady took you,

I lost a piece of me.

The hurt, the pain, crying in the cold,

Hard rain,

Getting sick and getting well,

Going through a living hell.

Created within a love so pure and true,

Please forgive me for not having you,

As we hope and pray that one day,

You’ll understand our reason,

For the decision we made.

A part of me will always be gone,

I realise what I did was wrong,

I will always be trapped in a world of denial,

I’ll never get to see your sweet, warm smile.

I wish and I cry and I hope in some way,

You will understand and let me hold your helpless hand, my life has now gone,

Its been taken away,

It all happened on that dreadful but memorable day.

You were a blessing from daddy and I, made through physical love,

To be cherished, protected and now given love from above.

I’ll never get to kiss you or tell you goodnight,

But in the angels arms I know your held tight,

An awful and selfish decision I made,

But trust me Junior the memory of you will never fade.

Mummy and Daddy’s little angel, I hope your delicate baby wings are made of gold,

And I hope one day in heaven, when I come up, its you I will get to hold.

Keep smiling Junior and keep watching over me

All my love, little kisses and cuddles

For my Gorgeous Little Boy

Mummy

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