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Fiona was my first born child, she was born on the seventh of August 1988 weighing 5lbs 15oz ..PERFECTION!

On the day Fiona died she had woken up early and was rather grumpy, I lifted her out of her cot and tried to feed her but she refused her milk, I changed her nappy and tried feeding her again, yet again she refused her milk, but was content with having a cuddle.
It was a bitterly cold winters morning so I took Fiona into my bed so we could keep warm, after a while Fiona drifted back to sleep, after ensuring she would be safe alone in my bed I went through to the living room to do some ironing, I checked on Fiona every 10 minutes ... bless her she was sound asleep

I checked in at 10.40 to see if she was awake , she wasn't , I coughed and Fiona got a fright, and gave a little jump as babies do, I KNEW she was ok.
My mum came to visit, at 10.55 mum walked into the bedroom to peep in on Fiona hoping she would be able to have a little cuddle, the next thing I knew mum was shouting " get an ambulance"

The next while is a blur, the ambulance came and the paramedics worked on Fiona, while we were on route to the hospital which was only 2 minutes up the road the paramedic said into the two way walkie talkie " 17 week old baby shallowly breathing" I remember thinking to myslef "Fiona is going to be ok! She is breathing!"

Mum and I were shown into the sisters office and told to wait for further news, what seemed to be a lifetime of a wait. A doctor came in and told us Fiona had passed away, that was the moment part of me died too.

A post mortem was carried out and we were informed that Fiona had died of cot death/suddent infant death syndrome
The post mortem revealed that all of Fiona's organs had been functioning perfectly, my baby really had just gone to sleep and never woke up

I went on to have three more children, all boys, sadly Fiona was to be my one and only daughter, my best friend, MY ANGEL

There is never a day gone by where Fiona is not on my mind or in my thoughts, we have pictures of Fiona on display and my sons talk lovingly about the big sister they never got to meet

REST IN PEACE MY BEAUTIFUL DARLING ANGEL

LOVED, MISSED AND REMEMBERED ALWAYS

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We made our preparations
we loved you from the start
from the moment we conceived you
your hands, your feet, your heart

For the moment that we saw you
we were extremly glad
we felt the bond between us
your loving mum and dad

You'll always be our first born
and we are so glad we met
you'll always be remembered
we will never ever forget

Although you are not with us
and our dreams for you are gone
we want to tell you darling
our love for you lives on.