Written by Dwane Natashas brother
We shall now share a eulogy to Natasha, written by her brother Dwane. Natasha was born in Canberra 27 years ago, the daughter of Katrina. She was the grand-daughter of Margaret and the late Kurt Pesenhofer. She has two brothers, Dwane and Brendan. For Natasha, it had to be an ice cream cake but Natasha’s first few birthday cakes where mums dodgy chocolate ones on the balcony of the Baringa Gardens which were made with as much love a mother can have. Tash was only just over a year old when her annoying little brother was born. It wasn’t long before the two were as much inseparable as they were at each other’s throats. So with the three of us crowding a tiny flat it was time to move to a bigger better house at 15 Joyner Place, Flynn. Even at such an early age you could see Tash's heart of gold covered with a strong minded attitude. Just down the end of the street lived Cassandra and Ryan, and the four of them Natasha, Dwane, Cassandra, and Ryan were best of friends, attending Flynn Primary until the age of ten. Going through what kids go through, Natasha was always so happy and cheerful with no worries in the world except if the boy around the street really liked her. She was about seven when Mum had finally met someone who she fell in love with. Being that he was from America and knowing that he loved her and Natasha and Dwane as his own, Mum made the decision to ship the family overseas to New Jersey. Natasha, excited and being so close with Cassandra and her many other friends, had a bit of trouble leaving them behind. As upset as she was about leaving her friends she was just as excited about the crazy and new world of America. Natasha, Mum, Dwane and Bobby moved to Elm Street, Bogota and Natasha quickly made friends with three girls next door and her new American class mates. With all the new wonders and different lifestyle she quickly matured and developed her own style and identity. She fell in love with fashion, music, boys and cheer-leading. Making friends with the kids in years above her and at school being put a year above her brother she became her own self. And although still at each other’s throats she always made sure that no one but she would give her brother Dwane trouble. A year had passed and the four of us moved into a smaller place to save money. Of course at Tash's request we did not move out of town, and leave our friends behind, so we moved into Queen Ann Road, Bogota only 10 minutes away below our crazy friends Louie, Lillie, little Louie, little Lillie and Charlene. By this time Mum and Bobby madly in love were expecting Natasha's second little brother. Being so excited the night Mum went into labor it wasn’t a surprise that Tash fell quickly in love with squishy cute brother Brendan. Watching her hold Brendan and the look in her eyes you knew how much she appreciated life and her family. As a few years, Tash, being 14, was seemingly a little displaced going through high school troubles and wanted a change. Mum and Aunty Helga thought a return to Australia would do her some good. So off she went again back to OZ settling with her aunt and her little cousin Kaleah and joining up to school. Again she became the most popular girl with all the boys after her and all the other girls so jealous. She was still really good friends with Cassandra and dating a class mate for a while. She enjoyed her life, time, and friends in Australia and after a year or so felt like returning to America, missing her Mum and brothers. While Tash was away in Canberra the family had moved home just a couple towns over to Bergenfield. Knowing Tash might be upset about the move we settled her nerves by giving her the master bedroom with her own toilet. Her makeshift entry would be in and out the back window to the back porch. Returning from Canberra Tash's continued friendship with Janet became even closer. As the average teenager she enjoyed learning and doing new things. Being the type of person she was - very courageous, she was not shy about trying anything at least once. She put on a persona as a tough chick not to be messed with. But for the people that really knew her she had all the same emotions as a topsy-turvy life of a teenager. And of course it was about this time she was 18 and wanted her independence. At the first opportunity she got herself a job and an apartment. It was this time when she thrived. Little miss glamorous, beautiful, confident and having all the fun in the world. She worked and she partied, spending money she didn’t have, but always expected she would. At this time she was happy dating her boyfriend, working and spending time with her family. Dwane and Brendan would have sleepovers at her apartment, go out for pizza, and have great times together enjoying each other’s company every time they were together. Natasha really loved having a baby brother to muck around with. Dwane found himself in the same position as Tash a few years earlier and again with Aunty Helga’s help decided to move back to Australia. So for the last couple of weeks before leaving and wanting to spend time with each other Dwane moved in with Tash. The two enjoyed each other’s company and having deep and meaningful conversations, getting to know everything they didn’t know. And there relationship grew from a brotherly sister love to respect. So of course it was hard to said goodbye. About two years later, going through personal troubles, she decided she would make one last move and with Aunty Helga and Mum’s help she settled herself in Australia. At first she wasn't quite sure about the move but once she was settled she was certain. This time around not being in school anymore meant it was harder meeting friends and socializing. She hung around with her brother and dated a couple of guys but was mostly in and out of a relationship with her friend Marty. Since returning to Australia Natasha's health was declining quite rapidly and she wasn’t quite as active as earlier years. Thinking herself years older than she was Tash went through ups and downs wanting more out of life than she could grasp. She had a few pet dogs that she loved dearly and spent a lot of time at home with them. She spent lots of time with her Nan. She always felt as if she could reach out to Nan. It was as if she was her second Mum. Tash felt comfortable confiding in Nan because of her unconditional love and acceptance. Nan was always there when Tash needed her and Tash loved and respected her Nan so much. At the early age of 27 Natasha past away in her sleep due to poor health. She was adored, loved, respected, and cherished. Her family is proud and honoured to have had her in our lives. We will miss her more than words can express.