Tonight  I went out to shovel ur mess you made for us & all I could think about is the  memories of you comeing by @ this time of year to see if I needed to be plowed out but I had beat ya to it I was just about done  shoveling but you would park your truck over to the side of my drive-way  and we would shoot the shit about different things & how I should of called ya before I decided to shovel & how I was So stubborn & thick headed & how you hated it because I don`t call you for any help & how I told you I didn`t wanna be a burden & how you would say I wasn`t a burden but right after thinking about alot of our memories we had & shared I did it I fell to my knee`s and Cried looking up to the sky asking you why ,,,,,,,, why did you have to leave so soon how could you leave me here with all the promises we made to each other & After you made me promise to never go away again because you will come looking for me & how none can get in our way & how you didn`t care what people had to say or thought about us now your gone & and a big part of me went with you how can I be happy again and smile like everything is ok when I don`t have you here to cheer me up and put the smile back on my face which you always had your way of doing  I don`t care how bad my situation was you always managed I could be so badly down and out and seeing you or just talking to you could change my thoughts for the day and help me forget about how my day started off shitty because you had your way to change my moods and forget about all the bull crap  that was going on around me only if you knew I just don`t know how im gonna be able to be feel this way again when im down and out without you around yes I can think of all the great & fun times we shared & but that isn`t the same without you here and seeing your sweet smile  and I promise I will never forget about you, You will always be in my heart and always on my mind know matter  what I say or do it will always & 4-eva be about you  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I promise you I will look out for mom that was one Big promise I made for you a  while back when I thought you were talking crazy & how you made me cry but I guess you really meant it and you knew your time was comeing soon it`s just so crazy because you would tell me you was Jokeing and I didn`t take it as a joke and I was very hurt well I hate to cut this short but I need to get some Sleep but as I lay my head down I will promise to try not to cry & replace my sad thoughts & put you on my mind I know this is what you would  want me to do so from now on to keep my spirits up im gonna think of you it maybe hard but I know just what you would  want me to do but if i can`t hold myself together just bare with me because it is gonna take me along time but I also know no one can hurt you no more & that your in a better place just make sure you save me a place ,,,,,,,,,,,,,Good Night for now & till we meet again ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,you were`nt  Just  my First True love but  you was Also my very best Friend It was about you & me all the way till the very end  S.W.A.K !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!