I am supposed to write Codys life story but I just wanted to tell people how much he meant to me! Cody was probally one of the only true friends I had growing up! He always looked out for his little sister and made sure no harm came my way! I never thought that I would miss hearing him aggravate me and call me TEST TUBE baby or tell my I was adopted! There isnt anything that I wouldnt give to hear that just one more time! I often wonder if he really knew what he meant to me and just how much I miss him everyday! There isnt a second that goes by that I am not consumed with the grief of losing him! Most of you probally think that I really didnt grieve that much at all! I just choose to do my grieving silently and when I am alone! The truth is that my grief goes on everyday,everytime I pass his pictures I stop and look and I weep because I still havent accepted that he is no longer here to watch me be a mother and grow into the person that in his heart he knew  I could be! He was still here when I had Harley and he got to see him just once but I knew that he was so proud of me and so proud of Harley! Mom always says that he  loved Harley not only because he was his nephew but just because he is mine! Now I have Kinzie and she never got to see what a great man her Uncle Cody was but every chance I get I tell them that he was a good man that everyone adored and that one day if they live their life for the lord that will get to meet him! I live my life with that hope and even after his death he is still making me a better person because before this I didnt make the best choices but now I  live my life so I know where I will end up after I leave this earth! This is just a glimpse into the emotions that I feel on a daily basis and there is a lot of emtions that I couldnt begin to translate into words!