The pond took his life.....
Hi, I am gabes mom Tami and i want to tell you my sons story so it can save you child or maybe help others going through what I am. my son was 5 years old for only 1 mouth befor he died. Gabe loved to fish, swim and was around water all the time, He know not to go around it without one of us. So we thought we had no worrys, but we was so wrong! On a hot day in june I was coming home from work at 4:00 pm and I got a terrifing call from my ex husben, "gabe fell in the pound... get to mackenzie hospitel fast..." So I called my mom to come get me. IN the time I was waitting for her i was trying to think of what was wrong.. maybe he hit his head and needs stiches, or maybe..., or. Well that when on for about 5 minets till my mom got there, in the car I was not to worried about what was going on. you kind of not thinking the worst.
When We got there I was met outside of the hospitel by a nurse and my ex husben. they started talking to me, but I could not hear them. The nurse put her hand on my shoulder and said " YOU MUST STAY COM, AND YOU NEED TO GO TALK TO GABE, BUT REMAIN COM...." At that point I droped to the ground in tears. My ex help me up and I when in to find my worst mightmare has happened. My little boy was lying lifless on the table with tubes coming out of him. My heart shattered at that moment. I walked over to him, took his cold hand in mine and said sofly " Mommys here, Mommys here, you are going to be ok sweetie." I touched his little head, kissed his cheek, and had to leave him to go into a room were the copes met me next to ask me stuff I had know Idea about. Then there was my ex mother in law, the one that was watching my son when it happen. See it was my ex husbens week with the kids, and they was at his house, and I haden't seen them for about a week. So when I looked at my ex mother in law I wanted to screem at her and freek out, but could'nt. I had to suck it up and try to put together why the hell my son was under water for over 45 min. without being found. But I got no information to help in that. there storys did not add up. Then right befor I lost it the nurse comes in and tells us that they are transvering gabe to portland childrens hospitle. I droped trying to figer out what happen to be with my son. Come to find out no one can go in the helicopter with him. and portland is 4 hours away and I dident have a car. So I kissed gabe and told him I would see him soon. Then the next nightmare happened...
I whent home with mom and got a change of cloths, and waited for my ex to get me, Yes I spent 4 hours in the car with someone I was so pissed at. When we go to portland my ex husbens wife showed up with her perends. Witch set me off, because she was not with my ex anymore and had abanded both of my childern about 6 mounths prier to gabe falling. So I was a lone with 5 people that hate me and I hate them, and my sons is laying there trying to breath. I could not stand seeing gabe that way. It was about 6 am and I went out of gabes room to tyr to get a little sleep. around 9 am the DR. came and told us tha there is no change in him. not good or bad he was just the same as he was when i when to sleep. I was holding his foot and watching him breath. this all went on for a long time about 8 hours. the DR came back in and said to us " The only thing that would happen if gabe woke up is he would be brain dead, no moving, talking, nothing. Gabe would just be there." I at that moment diyed. I could not give the answere to my ex or the dr. How could I was take him off life suport. all I could do is cry, and shake my head yes. EX husbend and I went in to the room at 7pm and sang our songs to gabe, we held him, we kissed him, said our prayrs, and watch our little boy take his last breath and then we felt his heart stop. Our boy was gone and then we cryed our hearts out. and kissed him goodbye.
And this is were my stoy end, is with the death of my only son, my baby boy, my best friend, my life, my boy... please if you have any coment to this let me know. I just hope this story helps someone.
Gabe
Death took my son one summer day
I had no choice, I was meant to stay
I died inside, not wanting hope
My soul was grounded, I could not cope
Time could not heal this shattered heart,
I would not let it, he could not part!
Death took my son and then came for me
But it let me live, what a tragedy!
I let death win, no strength to fight
I tried to hang on with all my might
It was no use, more determined than I
Little life left, just enough to cry
Tears and pain were a fact of life
Anger was gone, leaving only strife
Death took my son, what could I do?
Submit, give in or turn to who?
My God was there, I chose not to see
He sent His angel to watch over me
She let me mourn to give me strength
And grieve I did at such great length
I couldn't be strong, No! Not alone,
Until I remembered, my son was home!
God showed me death didn't have my son
If only I believed "They will be done"
I gave my son to death one day
I realize now, he could have stayed
I let death in to destroy my home
Unaware how my faith would roam
God held me close and showed the way
To take back my life, with His helped I prayed
Armed with His mercy, protected by love
I stood on my feet, with strength from above
I slowly turned and stared death in the face
And finally understood, I had left no space
For God to work His glory through me
The power, the strength, I must agree
Was always there, way deep within
To fight the battle I was meant to win
Death is a lie, his life is NOT over
It is mis-leading, its just a cover
To make you think there's no control
When in truth, Gods on patrol
To guide you, lead you, if you allow
All though at first, you won't know how
He will not leave you nor get disgusted
because he knows you've always trusted
Whether you believed or not
He knows the faith your heart has got
I took my son from death one day
And freed myself, my debt I pain
The grief and pain I gave to Jesus
To live the life which I know pleases
My son in heaven, My Father above
His peace descends on me like a dove
Although at times my heart's in pain
God has promised, I'll see him again
Don't Tell Me
Please don't tell me you know how I feel,
Unless you have lost your child too,
Please don't tell me my broken heart will heal,
Because that is just not true,
Please don't tell me my son is in a better place,
Though it is true, I want him here with me,
Don't tell me someday I'll hear his voice, see his face,
Beyond today I cannot see,
Don?t tell me it is time to move on,
Because I cannot,
Don't tell me to face the fact he is gone,
Because denial is something I can't stop,
Don't tell me to be thankful for the time I had,
Because I wanted more,
Don't tell me when I am my old self you will be glad,
I'll never be as I was before,
What you can tell me is you will be here for me,
That you will listen when I talk of my child,
You can share with me my precious memories,
You can even cry with me for a while,
And please don't hesitate to say his name,
Because it is something I long to hear everyday,
Friend please realize that I can never be the same,
But if you stand by me, you may like the new person I become someday.
I miss your laughter, fun, and gentleness.
I miss the things I used to do for you.
I miss the time, now filled with emptiness,
When each day was a stage for something new.
I miss your love, though mine for you remains,
A passion with no outlet to the sea,
A teardrop in a desert, that contains
What's left of my maternal ecstasy.
I miss your presence, like a silent chord
That anchored even solitude in grace.
I miss, for my love's labor, the reward
Of seeing some small pleasure in your face.
All these I miss, and yet they are all here
Within my heart, far more than I can bear.
