HI DADDY

　

Tell Jesus I said hello!

We know that you and mommy are up in heaven singing with the heavenly choirs.

Life would be too hard if I didn't believe I was going to see you again. That was the last thing I said to you, at the hospital I will see you in heaven."

I believe I felt your hand imperceptibly pressing mine. I know you felt my kiss on your cheeks and head when I kissed you goodbye.

I think I am most like you. I could understand perfectly why you got upset when plans were changed without warning. As a child, I could never understand why you disliked going back to the house, if we had forgotten something!  But now I am that same person. We both are guilty of being a bit inflexible at times – we each like things done our way. Yes, dad, you did and I still do, though like you, I try to temper it with grace. Maybe the wisdom of age is just teaching me a bit about keeping my mouth closed.

You always spoke out for what you believed in and I know you passed that on to me. And from a very young age you taught me the importance of being honest.

When growing up you were my hero. Knowing that you were the most best and wonderful daddy in the world because you were strong and fierce.

Daddy you were the one who carried me into the house when I fell asleep in the car. Who came running to my room when I was afraid at night.

The one who protected his daughter from guys who wanted to date me. I never told you but a daughter will never find a boyfriend or husband who will love her unconditionally like her father.

The person who did all those things and cared for me in that way, is no longer here. And I knew you loved me totally unconditionally.

And it is so hard that most people don't really understand. Or if they do, they do not say it. Sometimes it gets so hard for us, your , granddaughter, and grandchildren too. We have lost you dad, from our everyday lives and your absence is piercing.

I will never hear you ask how is the weather? Hear your voice, whistling, or listen to you screaming at the referee on tv. Feeling sad for the moment but then I remember your love will forever be in my heart.

I know it's a sadness that will change into something different over time. At the moment I'm not sure what but this sadness will not last forever. There is solace in knowing you are now in the presence of JESUS and he is taking care of you now.

I miss you daddy and no amount of consoling words can change that. Still called you daddy even into adulthood.

Always Daddy's Girl,