My heart is still breaking, guess it's a process than won't ever stop. I miss you more and more each day. Our first Thanksgiving without you is approching fast. I'm scared that I can't do it alone. You were always there in the kitche helping me... best little taste-tester in the world!
I had a little scare, but I felt your presence at the hospital, just before my surgery, and I knew everythin...
Nikki, I moved back to school today. The days just keep dragging by. My good days are beginning to be few and far between. I have to finsh unpacking. Talk to you later. I love you with all my heart.
Hey Sweet Angel,
I can't seem to get through a day without the tears. The weight on my chest is still heavy. Your dad and I went to a meeting last night..... they assured me that I'm not crazy. They say that they believe that God is letting me know that your doing great. He gave me a beautiful dream about you, I truly needed it. I love you and miss you more and more each day. Keep smiling and ...
Hey my beautiful angel,
I miss you so much. I love you and I hope you are having a blast in Heaven. I wrote to Ms. Della today, can't mail it 'til tomorrow. I hope Mr. John is doing well. I was a little afraid to write 'cause I don't know if he's better or not. I pray that he is. Ms Della has be through so much. It made me feel a little better once I finished the letter. Felt like you helped...
You are a shinnig star and i love you so much!!! I hope you can forgive me for not being there for you, I am sorry I was so selfish. I hope you do know that I love you and always think of you, everyday. The tears still fall and my heart still is broken. The one thing that keeps me going is loralai, she is my connection to you, and getting to know your family, I love the stories they tell of you...
Nikki, it hass been a month now that you left us, i still remember the day and i still think it is unfair. I can not wait to meet you again and hear you speak for the first time, i wonder what you will say.... i bet you will tell the best jokes, you always had a wonderful sense of humor. You had the most heart warming laugh. I wish you could have met Loralai she has a lot of you in her, she has...
I have so many wonderful memories of you. One of the greatest would have to be when you kept getting Sam and me in trouble. We were going to sleep and you kept playing, we would tell momma so when she would come in the room you would pretend to be a sleep.
Nik-Nik,
I miss you soooooo much!! It's hard for me to sleep at night knowing that you are not in your bed laughing!! You are my sister and my best friend!! I know your in Heaven! I know it is alot better than here! I Love You!!
Your Sister,
Sam
My darling Nikki, you had the biggest heart of all. You always had a smile on your sweet face. How I loved walking into a room and seeing your beautiful smile and your eyes light up. You wouldn't allow me to be sad for any reason.
Nikki, not a minute goes by without thoughts of you. You were not just my daugher, but also my best friend. I'm pretty sure you knew that. I'm the one taking "baby steps" now. I'm trying to learn to walk by myself and eat by myself.....not doing to good of a job yet. You were my life, I don't know how to do anything alone... but sometimes I do feel your presents... urging me on. I hear your won...
